It’s my birthday, and this happens to be one of the breaking points of my life – because for the past years i didn’t really have a grasp of what it meant.
Life for me was me just growing old and dying; so I can go back to where there is peace, as opposed to what this world was offering then.
As such every birthday for me was sign that I was nearer to the grave and my hopes of going back to heaven were becoming a reality.
This had been my reality for 20 years of my life. I filled my mind with bad stories that it began to form my reality and as such I always found one reason to be sad about my life. As a result, there were so many wrongful choices I made that would have deterred my purpose. In a life full of different interpretation, I was full of so much confusion on what it even was, I so much appreciated death.
But thanks be to God a it is with joy I write today because my perspective about life has changed, although not fully but with my everyday choice it is changing. I found a reason to live and I now look forward to every break of the morning.
Thanks be to this one person that has changed my whole cause of living. It was not so quick but eventually I realized the purpose for my existence. “Before I shaped you in the womb, I knew all about you. Before you saw the light of day, I had holy plans for you: A prophet to the nations— that’s what I had in mind for you.” Jeremiah 1:5 MSG Christ gave me a reason to live. In him, I found life. I thank God for deliverance from this mentality. I celebrate my 21st in happiness and in soundness of mind. I am sane, now free from the lies the devil has told me about my life. I was definitely in bondage of a stupid ideology but I so grateful to God who found me and lavished me with such an overwhelming love. He has flooded my eyes with the light of understanding and i walk in purpose. Its the first birthday i am truly happy. I just realized another thing my names are IFEOLUWA which could mean the will of God. Then TOLUWALASE that is God’s will is supreme. it just makes me aware of how intentional He is about me.
Thanks to everyone for your best wishes i hope this post encourages someone.